I have been so tired of living the same boring life for years on end so I have come to the conclusion that it is time to make a career change. If I make this change than I will finally be able to move out of this town that I have been stuck in my whole life. I dont hate it here I just know there is more to life than staying in the same town I grew up in. It is what everyone in my family does and I just do not want to be like that. I want bright lights, a great career and a beautiful house past the city limits. I dont think that is to much to hope for. Everyone else sees me as crazy, but I see myself as brilliant for wanting to better myself and get away.
To start the process I have signed up for numerous online classes because I cannot afford the traveling costs to school each day. Also by studying from home I am still able to work at my lovely dead end job until I complete my courses. Although I wish I could leave today I know it simply just does not happen that way. I have a lot of work ahead of me and I am fully prepared to do whatever I have to too make a better life for myself. Even if that means leaving everyone I have ever known behind. It saddens me deeply but I know it will all be worth it some day.
To remind myself of why I am doing this I have a little collage on my wall with beautiful cut outs of California and every other beautiful place I have ever wanted to visit. I start my classes this week so I know I will need all the reminding I can get. It has been years since I have done any type of school work so I know it is going to be hard at first. I think the hardest part of it all will probably be fighting for computer with my younger sister. She is on it 24/7 and is going to have to learn the whole sharing process at some point. There is no better time than now. I know she is supportive of me so I am hoping that she may even want to help with studying or something. Even just having one person support me would mean absolutely everything to me. Seemingly no one thinks online schooling is the real deal so everyone thinks it is a waste of my time which is far from true. They wont be laughing though when I am on my way to California to start a wonderful new job.